Fragmentation

Just wanted to note a pattern I have been observing lately. I am rarely able to focus now.

There seems to always be several parallel streams of thought that want to take over.

Most of these seem to be unresolved issues.

It literally feels like a split-brain.

It also makes me wonder how this is affecting my mood in the short term. And likely making me age faster.

There is an almost unknown pressure to be faster at things.

On first thought, it seems to be external, because of AI, about how it is supposed to change the dynamics of how most things operate and if so, how can I use it to my advantage.

On second thought, it seems to be internal (it’s always something internal), about how certain milestones should’ve been closer but they aren’t. At this point, it is not even clear if some of the milestones should exist in the first place.